Lighthouse Keepers

How convinced are we of the Lord’s love for us? How personal is it in our lives? Does he care what our feelings are toward Him? This past year was the hardest time of my life. I had gone through bouts of discouragement and anxiety before, but this one surpassed them all. Expecting with our fourth child, it started off a little rocky with inner fears and anxieties. But this quickly gave way to much bigger and deeper issues. I had always harboured anxious thoughts about God, wondering if He really did accept me and if Jesus really did love me, seeing as how I fell so short so often. But suddenly my shortcomings were so magnified I didn’t know where to turn. My mind felt like it was going crazy. (Source) I have always tried to have some sort of control in my life, but when this depression hit me, I was left with nothing. Empty. Stripped of my crutches I used to lean on. I felt like nothing in my life mattered anymore. I cried out to God for mercy, desperately searching the scriptu...

I have a confession to make. I fear many things. I have a feeling you’ll be able to relate. Maybe not to everything I fear. But you likely have some fears too. I looked up the top ten things Christian women struggle with. The 3 from the top was fear. I wasn’t surprised.   I’ve always been a cautious person. And it has definitely never been said of me that I live on the edge or that I’m a risk taker. Never! I see impending danger behind every bush. (not a literal bush 😆 ) People that know me well know I gasp easily when I think the driver in the vehicle I’m in does not see the car in front is putting on the brakes. My sister Tina once said I would swerve and hit a tree if I saw a caterpillar crossing the road. (quite an exaggeration 😏 ) When the kids were little I would freak out if they walked too close to the stairs or a ledge. I could see them go down head first. And it did actually happen a time or two. I could not watch them climb a tree. I was terrif...