Lighthouse Keepers

How convinced are we of the Lord’s love for us? How personal is it in our lives? Does he care what our feelings are toward Him? This past year was the hardest time of my life. I had gone through bouts of discouragement and anxiety before, but this one surpassed them all. Expecting with our fourth child, it started off a little rocky with inner fears and anxieties. But this quickly gave way to much bigger and deeper issues. I had always harboured anxious thoughts about God, wondering if He really did accept me and if Jesus really did love me, seeing as how I fell so short so often. But suddenly my shortcomings were so magnified I didn’t know where to turn. My mind felt like it was going crazy. (Source) I have always tried to have some sort of control in my life, but when this depression hit me, I was left with nothing. Empty. Stripped of my crutches I used to lean on. I felt like nothing in my life mattered anymore. I cried out to God for mercy, desperately searching the scriptu...

When anxiety and despair come knocking what do you do? (Source) I have never really struggled with anxiety to the extent I'm sure some of you have, but within the last year the Lord has been revealing to me how much I depend on controlling certain areas of my life for my sense of security. With my parents moving to Mexico for missions, raising young children; which is the most faith testing experience I have ever gone/am going through, becoming pregnant after struggling with infertility, this year has been a bit of a hard one. Not that these things are bad, but they were unplanned, unexpected and disrupted what I thought I had going for me, or how I had things planned out in my head. The Lord has been so kind and gentle in reminding me of his promises and his care for me in every situation. I am learning that resting in Jesus no matter how difficult the battle may be whether it is an internal or external one is really the safest place to be. This is a process though...

(Source) Have you ever prayed for more faith? What if a trail where to come your way, would you still hold on to the  Lord? Would you still rather cry out to God our Father than listen to  people's advise? I wanna write a bit of what we've experienced this  past year, hoping and praying that it will be a blessing to someone  who reads this.  2015 was the most difficult but most blessed year of my life, I have grown so much closer to the Lord, A year ago December  2 - 2014 we found out that I have cancer, just hearing that put fear  into me, I was 20 weeks pregnant at the time plus we had a little  toddler, I couldn't understand why something like that would happen to  me especially at my age I couldn't sleep that night after spending a  long day at the hospital I cried out to the Lord all night until a  thought came to mind and that thought was this: And behold, a leper came and worshiped Him saying,  Lord, if You ...

Even though it is February, I don't want to write about flowers, chocolates, and mushy lovey dovey stuff. I want to write about something that happens all year round to many different people. Anxiety! As far back as I can remember I had a fear of almost everything; from water, to dogs, to getting sick, I feared and worried about everything. Those fears only increased as I got older. One of the biggest things that sparked my anxiety was a sudden onset of some strange symptoms with my health. When I was 16 I started getting these episodes where half of my body would go numb, I couldn't see clearly or focus or speak clearly. I was honestly terrified but I didn't tell anyone. The episodes happened a couple of times a year. It wasn't until about 7 years later when I was married and had two children that I finally went to see a doctor. He sent me to get her an MRI and to see a neurologist. In this time I prayed a lot. "Be anxious for nothing,  but in everything...